I have a certain stress pattern. Whenever I am really stressed out i.e. studying like crazy, I do really stupid things that I actually don't have time for. Like deciding buying a new washer (really needed one - studying for my last exam), fixating on thinking that I hate my balloon button and really should get myself a non-balloon button (already studying - four weeks ago), switching my cell phone plan and getting a new cell phone (two weeks ago - didn't do it), and deciding that I hated the dressings I use for my button (last week). This is the story I want to tell:
My button does leak some, especially with my motility problems, and I always have to use a dressing. Kirby, a fellow tube feeder, had told me about this cloth g-tube pads that she really loved. So last Thursday, I started to research g-tube pads on the internet and found this site http://www.mybuttonbuddies.com/ with designs I really liked. I couldn't order them right away, as I don't own a credit card and had to add money to my paypal account first. I then got thinking that I actually had sewing in school and owned a sewing machine. After I was done studying on Friday I went downtown to get some fabrics and Saturday bright and early I started sewing. I only allowed myself to sew for an hour before I had to start learning again. I had so much fun doing it that I could not wait to keep on sewing at night. I was still trying to find out the right stitch to sew them together. At 11 PM I had to stop for the night, deciding I would try the new stitch in the morning. So there I was again, bright and early on Sunday morning, switched on my sewing machine - and nothing - it broke on me. I was so disappointed! The thing is, the pads I have sewn so far, are very tightly stitched around the edges of the hole for the tube, and they are not soaking up the leakage that well. So then I thought I had to get myself a new sewing machine - something that I don't actually have time for right now. But then I realized that this is my stress pattern. This is so typical for me, being so impatient that I couldn't wait and had to start sewing myself right away.
So I relaxed today. I am not buying myself a sewing machine right now. I have more important things right now to focus on. And I ordered myself a week's worth of cloth g-tube pads from my button buddies today.